In this season of the “witch”, I think back to the show “Bewitched”, where Samantha, the protagonist, wiggled her nose and magically the house would be clean or she teleported herself somewhere. I grew up in a world watching these magical women and Disney happily ever after stories. As I change and morph in my adult life, I wonder why I can’t just snap my fingers and BECOME. This process of awakening and stepping into my authentic, sovereign self unravels so many layers of emotions. Between the amazing moments of connection, bliss, and real world magic, there is a process of letting go. I asked my guidance team, “where’s my magic wand?” and this is the response I received.
[First is my discussion with my higher self: (note: this is not edited- just the way it flowed)]
People, community, build each other up.
Working together. So contradictory to the way... of being... born into a culture of competition.
Getting it right, becoming popular or not, being rejected on the outside. Layers and layers of... being left out, told I don't fit in. Being excluded, saying my words are wrong. How I judge myself in these moments, and I judge those around me. How is it that working in a community is the best way to grow? The South African Proverb:, “If you want to go fast, go alone, if you want to go far, go together”. What does that mean in our modern world?
When we're so set to be in competition with each other, to get ahead of each other in... the materials, and the things that we are wanting and being.
[Then it moved into receiving from the Beings of Light: a vision of dolphins swimming before me]
Thinking of communities that thrive together, the dolphins, swimming, supporting, holding each other up, and holding other creatures up in the ocean and the land, and floating in the flow, moving with the current, being still in the body. Being still in the body. Being very still, and deep, and centered, and feeling the earth in the body. Being present with the body.
So many years (as a human) of stepping over emotions, glossing over the hurt feelings, pushing them aside, and now, as I unwind and I unravel, I realize I have to unravel more. My mentor said, It is like the peeling back of an onion. One layer at a time. All the things that have come into the world in this time are part of our being in our soul (in a body). And then, once that is accomplished, all the parts of our soul's eternity that have surfaced, and were reflected and carried through our vocal manifestation at this time, are speaking of the now, which was drawing from eons of being and being present. Eons of... the awakening process, all to be here now, all to be healed now, all to be done together now. Together, we can do this. Together we are here for each other. Giving this support and giving and receiving this support. For some, it is easier to receive. For some, it is easier to give. Those who give and give themselves away, so there's nothing left. And those who receive, and take, and pull, and plead, and still not pulling, and not getting enough resources to be filled. It is a balance of both, the push and the pull, the give and the receive, the being present together.
Being in a community together, reflecting for each other. Reflecting, being in a space of love when together, holding each other up, being in that sacred container of knowing, knowing what it is to be human, knowing what it is to carry so many burdens and so many challenges of trying to be present in this time, being present in this community and in this society. Holding each other up with unconditional love, being present, allowing, allowing, allowing.
Allowing, allowing, yes, allowing, and, coming into love, coming into center when you feel the trigger, when you feel... unease, come back into (your) center. Come back into (your) center. Feel the earth, feel the ground, feel the connectedness. Refill yourself with love. Remembering that if somebody triggered you, it is only a reflection of a layer you have not yet peeled back in your own onion. A layer that is wanting to be revealed. So remind yourself, when you come into judgment of another, come back to yourself in love, because that judgment is a judgment for yourself, not for the other.
Everyone is doing their best at every moment. And the more we can love each other in these moments as we grow together, the deeper our connections will go. The deeper I bond, the deeper the community, the deeper the support. The deeper the unfolding. The deeper the unfolding. Be grateful for the ones who call you, your friend, who are spending time with you and being in your presence. Those are the ones that see your beauty and reflect your presence.
Maybe not every moment, maybe not every time. We are all in this unfolding together. And we are all in this place of trying... to come into our hearts, to come into our hearts, come into the earth, stay connected with the earth. Ground into the earth. Fill yourself with love, fill yourself with the bounty, the bounty, the bounty of Mother Gaia is here presenting all her gifts, all her knowing. Mother Gaia is here to hold you. Feel yourself drop into Mother Gaia. Feel yourself drop into the connection. Dropping in and refilling, refueling yourself, giving yourself the love, feeling the love come back and multiply.
As it pours up and into the heart and into the being, allowing this continual flow. This continual process. It is a slow one. It is not fast. Be willing, be willing to go slow. Allowing to go slow. Be grateful to go slow. Each unfolding, each knowing is such a treasure, and the slower you go, the deeper the layer will peel at that onion, each recurrence. Sitting with each experience and allowing it to have its moment, going deeper into the body, flushing and flushing and flushing as you settle into the body, the old emotions and experience arise, ready to be revealed, ready to be released, ready to be healed. And now you can sit in the knowing, in the presence, in the being, and be in that love, be in that space. All is well, dear one, all is well. Hold yourself in love. We are the beings of light.
Blessings,
Lilianna
NOTE: the words in parenthesis, I added for understanding.
